i'm having some very minor symptoms again. but i don't know why. something that i've noticed is that even plain yogurt has a small amount of sugar in it, as do many other things that are on the okay list.
also, i can't find the kind of tinctures i need that aren't made with alcohol. i know it's a small amount of alcohol, but i'm beginning to wonder if it's enough to help the yeast start going again.
i just can't figure out what would make them come back. i'm starving. shouldn't they be starving, too?
i guess stress is also a factor. and a lot of things are stressing me out right now:
-work
-capitalist, homophobic, troll coworker
-cold weather coming
-certain friendships
-my parents
-having a messy room
-planning a zine fest
-cisdudes
-writing about my mom
-capitalism
-consumer culture
-the future (horrible, horrible future)
-not sleeping
some of these things are things i can do something about the lower the stress. like manage my time better and clean my room (but i keep cleaning it and it gets messy 3 days later, i've never cleaned it this much and it last so little). i can get more stuff prepared (maybe this weekend) for the cold, like a new (to me) window.
the other thing that's stressing me out is that i need new panties. bad. between the fact that i haven't bought underwear in 2 years and living with various adorable but period panty eating dogs my underwear selection is really dwindling. but i hate stores. i hate ads, i hate the lights, all i think about is all the gas used to ship the products around and how they were made and how crappy and disposable everything is and all the people spending so much of their money for shit that doesn't help them live more fulfilling lives. i once had a panic attack at HEB for these reasons. i could go on and on but i don't want to think about it anymore.
i don't think that me not shopping at corporate chains will somehow have an effect on something. i don't think consumer activism has any effect on most things. but the whole panic attack because of consumerism and capitalism, and not wanting to contribute to those things keeps me away. BUT WHERE WILL I BUY UNDERWEAR NOW? i guess i could make it?
OMG~! I also need new unders. I'm not equipped to make them at this time. Diane tried to get me to buy some on etsy but 1) they were expensive and 2) she complained the whole time she was here that they were giving her wedgies. And I can live with having to just buy some from a regular stupid store but regular stupid stores seem to have something against all cotton unders. Also-yes, stress, for me, was always the biggest factor, trumping all others.
ReplyDeleteWhat kind of tinctures are you looking for? Maybe we can make them, or find an alternate method of delivery. I've got a pretty comprehensive herb book.
ReplyDeleteUPDATE: i got underwear!
ReplyDeletealso, i was using a black walnut and wormwood tincture. i wanted a pau d'arco tincture or a goldenseal one, as well. or to make my own anti-yeast one with a combination of those herbs. we should make some!